Posted in Pre-Race by Shari Scott on 4/1/2012
I think sometimes it would be easier to take the gospel if I wasn’t a Christian. I mean, I am thankful. I am speechless. I would understand I have done all this crap to myself and to other people. I have been so selfish in my motives. I hate and I judge as if I am perfect and I act on that hate and judgment with words of slander and ignoring people's needs.
Today, I went to church. I saw some friends that are not as close as I wish they were. They told me they got my support letter and they will send me some money soon. My automatic response was to say, “aw, no that’s cool, I’ve got it” as if they were wanting to buy my dinner (which technically I guess they kinda are). The thing is I don't have it. I don't have any money to go and I am in need of it.
I slowly said thank you. Not that I wasn’t thankful, I’m just stunned. They are so quick to give. They got my letter yesterday and wanted to give today.
THIS IS THE GOSPEL!
I don’t deserve anyone’s money. The love of my friends make them so willing to give, not the things I have done.It’s hard on my pride to not deserve what I am getting. How humbling is their love! How humbling is our God!!!!
I am His. Why? He wants me. Why?! The only reason God chose me to be His is because He chose me to be His. The only reason God loves me is because He loves me. I have done nothing yet I am blessed.
Sometimes it would be easier to hear God say, you are a sinner. Get away from me. I understand that. I have actually earned that. But for Him to say, you are mine. For him to say neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate you from my love. [Romans 8:38-39]
That is beautiful. That is what brings me to my knees today.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGlTzH9xkXQ
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Posted in Pre-Race by Shari Scott on 2/25/2012
There comes a time in your life when you know nothing will be the same. A certain 24 hours will mold the rest of your life. A wedding day. Your first kid being born or adopting one. And graduating from college.
It is not a bad thing by any means but it is so weird to me to think about my life inside a classroom with peers and papers are over. I’ve known this life since I was 5. I understand this life. In one day, May 5th, this will be gone.
I remember parents in high school saying those would be the “best times of your life”. I remember graduates saying college would be the “best time of your life”.
People saying this really annoyed me. Why were these people living lives only wishing they could live in their pasts?
I know. I know. Responsibilities just become greater the older you get but what a blessing it is to be entrusted with those things! I truly believe if you are giving your whole life to God you won’t be wishing to live in the past. God has exciting things for each of us to do, to be passionate about, and to see great things we couldn’t have imagined otherwise.
Now, it is easy for me to say that now, when God is sending me all over the world right out of college. If you knew me though, you’d know when I’m excited about something I don’t want to wait. For example, when I have thought about a Christmas present for a while and I have it wrapped, I hate waiting for Christmas to give it to them. I actually beg them to open it Christmas Eve because I don’t want to wait to see their expression.
So my problem isn’t really with looking at the past but the future, but believe it or not God has given me excitement for where I am right now. I have such amazing roommates and classes I love. I get to be a part of a wonderful college ministry that has forever changed me. I am so ridiculously excited for the World Race in September but right now MTSU is where God wants me to share his love.
I’m learning to be where I am and focus on what is in front of me instead of wishing I was some place different. I want to encourage you to pray for God to give you excitement and passion in your life, right now, with the people you live with, and the coworkers you see daily. Who knows what He’ll do or how He will change your heart.
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